Year 2010

I just missed writing my own thoughts, I had been out a while and not able to update this blog of mine. While looking back of Year 2010, although its not ended yet, I remember the life that passed on me. I can say that Year 2010 is not really for me.

I experienced the saddest thing in my life. I had been in a place and I lived there in 11 months, it was a beautiful place for many people but for me its the loneliest place I had ever been.

I never enjoy my work not because I am tired of it but the real essence of my work is somewhat vague.


I had been far from family and friends, and away from my nature adventures.

Year 2010 may not been really good to me, but I see hope before it ends. New life comes into me and I look forward that the life I had were a trials to me.

I survived year 2010 and I learned a lot of things in life.

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On my own now

For several weeks passed and up to this moment, I am currently being tested in this life. This is the time there is so much hardship and pain. This is the first time I experience and still experiencing to be scared in my life and my future. This thing does not involve career, but this involve a more personal thing. How I wish life can be more kind to me. But I cannot blame the things happened to me to anyone but to myself. Maybe not even blaming myself, just think that life is just the way it is.

I am struggling, having pain inside of me. There are times that I want to surrender, there are times that I want to stop. Sometimes, I wonder how will I survive this situation I am having right now, sometimes, I think whether I can pass this. I don't know what to hope, I don't know what to think. All I know I am living in this world with uncertainty. I am trying to be strong,. I need to be strong. I have to be strong not for myself but for my family.

This is the real life...it's not always happiness, most of the time its the contrary of it.

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New in Everything?

It's almost two weeks had passed and probably I immediately settle down myself in the new world I am currently living in. Yes, there were tremendous changed happened in my life after I decided to accept the job offer I had abroad.

Now that I am in the so called "new world", I guess I have to accept the life that I maybe having here.

Here are the catch..

1. No more work after working hours (well this thing is kind of new to me, all my previous companies that I had, I used to work even after working hours - like being on call, work from home, or sometimes, need to go back to the office to resolve issues)

2. Traveling to work from and to probably boring or exciting (because my home is almost or more than an hour from home, but I don't have to waste my time, either I will sleep or have a book to read and enjoy my music together)

3. Cost of living is really high, but for two weeks, I learned if the price is good or not (although I knew that I will learn a lot in due time).

4. Although I am living with family abroad, I need to be independent to a lot of things (that's what the adult should be doing anyway).

5. I need to find a new hobby that will be fit with my working schedule (as of now I am still looking for that hobby since my mountaineering adventure will be in pause mode for the moment).

6. Mix culture and race are really diverse in the world I am moving in, and understanding different kind of culture, the way they live and being smart dealing with them will really help me.

I knew there are lot of new things that I may experience or going to happen in my life, but I guess I have to enjoy it, no need to hurry and no need to overwhelm myself.

Until then.

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Back After A While

I know its been a while since the last time I updated this blog and I know I am not sure if I can keep a promise even to myself but I will try my best to keep this blog updated, especially this time that there are tremendous changes happened and keep on happening in my life.

But for all, life is so short and I have to enjoy it...c",)

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Busy

I just notice that its almost a month since the last time I created my last post. Time flies so fast that I don't even notice that one month had passed already. I knew I need to catch up with my blog...

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