On my own now

For several weeks passed and up to this moment, I am currently being tested in this life. This is the time there is so much hardship and pain. This is the first time I experience and still experiencing to be scared in my life and my future. This thing does not involve career, but this involve a more personal thing. How I wish life can be more kind to me. But I cannot blame the things happened to me to anyone but to myself. Maybe not even blaming myself, just think that life is just the way it is.

I am struggling, having pain inside of me. There are times that I want to surrender, there are times that I want to stop. Sometimes, I wonder how will I survive this situation I am having right now, sometimes, I think whether I can pass this. I don't know what to hope, I don't know what to think. All I know I am living in this world with uncertainty. I am trying to be strong,. I need to be strong. I have to be strong not for myself but for my family.

This is the real life...it's not always happiness, most of the time its the contrary of it.

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Our Mind

clipart came from ms office

I read some books which tells us how powerful our minds can be. Something I learned few years ago, that the way we think affects our current and even our future life. Whatever we have in our thoughts become our reality. I do understand it. If I am pessimist to all things, I will get frustrated and that is not good for me. That is where the optimism have good effect. But sometimes, we can't control ourselves in different situation (but I know we should be always in control). Why? Maybe because we are not expecting things to be turn out different of what we wanted it. The effect will be surprises, so what should we do? Don't expect anymore? No one can really tell us what is going to happen in our life in the next seconds. I myself can think for now I am just writing something but I can't predict what is going to happen to me in the next seconds in my life. I can actually say that my minds right now think a lot of stuff and maybe I am not aware earlier but I am at this moment. My mind can shift from one thing to another in a matter of seconds and sometimes I will notice it but most of the time I did not.

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